the other day at work all these butterflies were feeding on this tree next to the playground and i realized that butterflies are the ultimate girlmonsters because they are something that is culturally revered as beautiful/pleasing but under intensive scrutiny (i.e. getting my face real close to one) are revealed to be horrific and thereby powerful/compelling, because by bucking or actively ruining their culturally dictated symbolism, they become meaningful to me. such, i suppose, is the nature of the girlmonster, or like whatever.